11:30 PM Wednesday Day 45

So Zoe had his suregery today and it was a success.  He was in and out with a G Tube in no time.  Everything seems to be going well.  His liver size is reducing but slower than the doctors would like.  This seems to continue to mess with his platelet count and causes him to need transfusions.  I know that healing sometimes takes time and so we wait.  Patiently impatatient if that makes since to anyone…. 

We were asked today to speak to some teens from a local church who were volunteering at the Ronald McDonald House, so we shared Zoe’s story.  There are two primary emotions involved everytime we tell Zoe’s story.  First is the why?  Why did God do it?  Why doesn’t He do it for everyone?  I can say God is all knowing or we’re just blessed.  But it’s hard to say my faith was just bigger or better, mainly because I just don’t believe that “faith for healing” is the only thing going on.  For Carmen and I we know God will, from beginning to end, be glorified.  Then we just believe His Word.  The truth is I don’t know why “us” and not “them,” why “this time” and not “that time.”  That emotion keeps us humbled and won’t allow Zoe’s story to be bragging rights.  The second emotion is just knowing that God is the one who has brought Zoe to this point, that makes us want to shout and give Him glory.  The fact, that every question asked should have an answer having something to do with Jesus, is one that surprisingly comes with caution.  You want to say things like, “Sure the doctors did a lot, but God did the most.”  Then we quickly exclude those who didn’t get their miracle.  It’s like looking another believer in Christ in the face and saying, “My God’s better than yours.”  That’s crazy.  Sure God is the responsable party.  He is the one who did the impossible in Zoe’s life, but He’s the same God who didn’t in the child’s life just two beds over from Zoe.  It’s not just that we go to God asking, but it’s the manner in which we do.  God’s not just the leader of a cool club we get to be a part of.  He’s everything.  We trust Him to do what’s right.  I have come to the conclusion that faith is more than just claiming the prize.  Faith hinges on trust, and trust is understanding that you will not understand.  “His ways are not like our ways, and His thoughts are not like our thoughts.”  They are just different, and we cannot comprehend them.  So when we share Zoe’s story it is important that we do so yes giving honor and glory to God who is responsable, but to also be aware of the fact that my faith was not the demand that made it happen.  My faith through obedience and trust just enabled it to happen. So without fear we try to maintain the balance of those emotions and gladly tell Zoe’s story.  Why?  Because anytime God is involved, it is a story that needs to be told, and we have the responsability to rell it right, so that everyone may be drawn to Him.

You may remember me asking you to pray for a young man named John Paul who was recently in a car wreck returning to school here in Savannah from home.  He was supposed to have surgery today, but could not because his temperature spiked.  The doctors believe he has pneumonia.  John Paul is in need of a miracle so I ask again that you would pray for this young man.  If he were your son would you want believers believing for his healing?  Yes. 

Also some of you may know Scott Martin a missionary to India.  I am working on a project with him and he sent me an email asking me to pray for his daughter.  She has contracted Dengue Fever which can be fatal.  Please lift this family up and believe for healing in this young girls body. 

I know that many of you have been and continue to pray for Zoe.  Maybe you don’t check in everyday or multiple times a day, but Zoe is on your heart and mind.  Carmen and I are thankful for that.  We have had strength through some tough days recently, because of the love and support of so many believers.